butty's Cancer Blog
August 9, 2010
A friend of mine the other day said that I helped raise him from the dead as Christ did Lazarus and that he is now experiencing a new Resurrection in his life. Of course he was speaking metaphorically as are all great stories told; and I did nothing other than be myself with him sharing my experience, strength and hope . . . leading him on a guided meditation one day while he was in emotional pain. . . and then yesterday, while taking myself on an ‘artist’s date’ not knowing exactly what do to or where to go, I wandered throughout foggy, wet San Francisco. First I went to the white light infused buzzing Mac Store and then through Chinatown and by chance being drawn into City Lights bookstore where I ventured through the crowded isles, ending up of course in the art section where I looked down to see a book on Spiritual Symbols of many of our Earth’s cultures, which after reading intently, especially seeing the symbol ‘LOTUS’ pop up multiple times, in multiple cultures – - – I put the book back despite being immensely enticed.
Then I was guided to two other books which I soon purchased: Jung on Synchronicity and the Paranormal and Jung on Death and Immortality. The first book will be a gift for my buddy, whom I have come to deeply love, who felt as if he was raised from the dead and I gave the second book as a gift to myself given the connection Our cancer fosters to death and immortality. I can’t wait to see what I discovery in this book. I already started reading the book Jung on Synchronicity and the Paranormal before I give it away this coming Friday to my buddy, who he himself has many paranormal experiences which to my chagrin have been, at times, pathologized for him by inept psychologists working with him. In essence, he is a loving mystic. For me today and since my cancer diagnosis way too many fascinating things, mystical things, are happening to me all the time . . . and I am blown away by the ‘scientific’ methods Jung employed to ‘objectively’ study, understand, lecture and publish on such phenomena. He was visited many times by Einstein and Freud both of whom contributed to his ideas on these subjects with Freud, at one time, actually supporting Jung’s interests in the paranormal as being ‘external’ and more than just projections from Our internal Psychies. These investigations and personal experiences of Jung were discovered and understood prior to the 1950s with seeds of Insight planted at the beginning of the last century in the Mind of Jung.
I know in my heart and from my cancer experiences that there is so much more going on in our universes than our hearts can love or our eyes can see. These healing phenomena, call them Grace, Angles, God, Spirit, Nirvana, Hope, Mystery, You Name It! .... They are real, external, non-psychic Realities that are easy for us to see and live as we stick our heads up above this Earth infused quagmire, above that space, between this world and other realms of Existence that are Here for our living. How do I see through the eyes of cancer’s Grace such Mystery operating in Our living when my connection to the Base and the Earth are the chrysalis only through which my Butterfly within Becomes?
I have to become willing to let go of my stinking thinking around the travesty and pain of cancer in order to see how this disease can teach me how to live before I transform into what I shall and We are becoming next.
July 22, 2010
I am happy to report that whatever was going on for all those days simply ended over the past few days. YEAH! All your feedback helped me emotionally which really bothered me more than the physical symptoms. So thank you VERY MUCH everyone who shared your experiences and hope with me.
I wonder if the visualization of which I spoke helped.. . . I kinda think they did! .. I also went to acupuncture yesterday and I think that put an end to it.. as I started feeling that warm full feeling instead of gurgling, cramps and that ‘uneasy’ feelings… . . . .The other two things I did that were different was that I eat some lychee and I did STOP my probiotics, about four or five days ago, as I was taking them everyday, so maybe that or a combination of all of the above had something to do with this change.
Who knows, but your words of support and your intentions for my best health, I know helped heal. With sincere appreciation… Frank
Update - Abdominal Symptoms Gone! Poof!, 
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Frank,
I’m so glad you’re feeling better. I was going to mention the probiotics. It helps to take prebiotics and enzymes along with the probiotics. Both radiation and chemo take such a toll on our bodies, I don’t know if our digestive tract will ever return to normal. So a little help with the bacteria in our guts will sure help. I take all 3 of the above and when I start to get lazy and stop taking them, I get all bloated and grumbling. Take care. Gail
Posted on oops the post didn’t go through. I am so happy that you are feeling better Frank…..We need to keep holding each others hand virtually through this. It is a long hard road but we are getting through it…...Love ya my friend!
Nancy
frank…so glad you are feeling better…i think it really is “the nature of the beast” ...I wonder if a few bad days here and there are inevitable….maybe in time, but the question is how much time?...and I suppose its different for everyone…time will tell…..for me it depends on what I eat…taco’s are bad and so are mamma’s cabbage rolls (that was last week…YIKES) not so good!
Glad to hear all is normal again
d xo
P.S. It’s me again. I was thinking about doing acupuncture. What did you think of the experience? Think it will be helpful? Have you been doing it on a regular basis? Are you doing it for healing or for preventative? Gail
Hey Frank – good news! Happy to read this.
This is a challenge post-diagnosis isn’t it – symptoms which pre-cancer fear would have been “just one of those things” or “a tummy upset” or “a bit of a bug” carry so much . . . learning to regain body confidence and believe that it is all ok / quite normal is work . . . and so important that we do it or else what would be the point – if everyday brings fear and neurosis then the cancer has won. I am talking to myself here because I have had some tenderness in my abdomen the last few days and have caught my self poking and prodding to see what I could feel – have had to challenge myself because I could feel it impacting my emotional state.
I am sure that the visualisations help – when we access our god brain (as we do in meditation) I think we resource ourselves in ways we don’t yet fully understand (scientifically).
all the best, janet
Posted on Dear Frank—
Hearing this good news just makes my day! I’m so relieved to know that you are no longer in pain and distress. Sometimes we have to heal ourselves by trial and error—eliminating some things in our diet or supplement regimen, or adding to. The doctors don’t know everything, so we need to listen to our bodies and give things a try sometimes. I’m so glad you are feeling better and I hope you never go back to those “bad gut” days! As for the visualization, I’m going to have to get serious about doing that every day. I think this has great merit. So my dear friend, just keep on doing what you’re doing and stay well! Love and hugs—
Martha
Posted on Awesome Frank!
It took my digestive system weeks to chill and start feeling like ok, maybe I can go out for the afternoon and not scout out the nearest bench to the rest room!
So…is the Cinco de Mayo in Agusto Fiesta still on at your place? (I’m craving a giant chile relleno!)
xoxo,
Debbie
Posted on Glad you are back to feeling your old self again. Power of positive thinking probably helped lots as well.
Posted on Dear Frank, sorry for the late comment. I have had a lot going on the past few days and did not get to go on the computer. I am glad you are feeling better and it was probably that “Minnesota flu” I mentioned.I will post later about all my medical b.s. I am actually too tired to even get worked up at the moment. Warm wishes Love, Lnda
Posted on 
Thanks for your support - 
Aw, Frank, you are so right that there is a supernatural universe that we know so little about. There is so much good to be grasped that is right within our reach if we search for that and don’t get mired down by our earthly circumstances. It’s all about turning sand into pearls and rocks into diamonds. The Bible talks about the struggle in the whole universe that we never see, the war being waged between good and evil, the battles taking place in the spiritual realm. We normally only experience the visible, everyday effects of the struggles taking place, but the spiritual battle wages nevertheless. Providentially, there is a plan mapped out by God that will be revealed in His time.
You are a good friend to help out others looking for answers and hope. And you’re right on….cancer is transforming and brings us to new understandings and insight. Here’s to you that your spiritual search and journey will land you right where God wants you to be.
God bless, Gail
Gail, thank you so much for your kind words of support. . . Its so great that the archetypes we share have fostered throughout history and throughout this universe many creation stories and myths, resurrections and Gods and Goddesses all of whom and in many diverse traditions, like the bible, like the Koran, like Taoism and such writings as The Secret of the Golden Flower, and Jung great words of God he channeled and all the Others who are in Union with the Creative Forces of the Universes We inhabit. . . speak about these mysteries. I am so glad that not any one point of view holds truth as the Mystery of our existence is based, I believe, on the every changing Word of God as each of us make Flesh as the Universe unfolds Herself though our Intentions. Each of our feeble expressions pale in comparison to the next level of reality that Our understanding shall manifest. Love to you always, Frank
Frank, First let me thank you for your comment and beautiful insights and perspective. I love how life takes you to where you should be or need to be sometimes. You meet people you were supposed to see things that were meant to inspire you and it’s only when we open ourselves up to the wonder and greatness of the universe and receive it’s gifts, then we can help others get through the same experiences we’ve been through. I will check out the book you mentioned to me.
I just finished reading Anatomy of the Spirit and now am reading Openng to Spirit – both about chakreas and healing, but varied perspectives. LOVING IT!
Dear Frank, My computer has been ILL for a bit, so was unable untile now to read your wonderful post. I love JUNG and this just reminds me how I need to go back and read again. I have had a lot going on lately with my hpv(always small caps for that) popping back to a different area in a small way. They will watch it until Nov. and then treat it, if it need to be. One dr. says treating will only be a band-aid but, I believe beat it back!
Enough on that. Again, I am going to slow down and take some time for me. Your post enlightens me to do this. This was just what I needed to start my day. THANK YOU -for your post and please keep your thoughts coming. Have a wonderful day. Love, Linda
Hi Frank – just coming to your post as I have been poorly in bed but glad to read it now. It makes me smile and warms my heart to read your opening and acceptance to the journey the cancer diagnosis is taking you on. I feel a little jaded in this moment – just tired – but I am with you. Do the work (I mean really do the work) and the world changes (or so it seems). Learning to own and love the shadow and reclaim the light . . . it feels good . . . everything is perfect just the way it is – it is what it is says love : ) xx